Fly away :D

Dear all the guys who be a reader of my  blog. Insane blog but full of my story. And you know, it's tragic moment when I love someone with no trust. It shouldn't happen, because "A relationship with no trust like a mobile phone without provider. You still can't use your phone, but you can call or text someone there. And You just play games." but it's the truth of all I was doing now-___- I give him chance to communication with another girl one or two or all his friend. I give that chance like his normal life without me beside him instead. Freak, right? but once again, it was happening to me. I don't wanna protect, keep or save him so too much or overact. It's really no me. Since he made me upset down, i try with all of my heart to don't believe him 100%. I don't want all bad memories who had happening to me will be replay. Oh noo, I won't!! Sometime I love him and I don't wanna lose him, but on the other day I just want to end this. I don't have reasons even a reason to survive of this relationship, the problem it's not about the other guy who make me fall in love. No, it because my heart is awkward. No, it was not labile, I have understood what the best i've to do, so I can choose what is good and false? And sometime this relationship make me fool, to have same questions; the first question is "Do I have to survive on this relationship even though with no trust to him?" 2nd question " Did I love him?" 3rd question "Did he love me?" 4th question "Did I make a wrong decision?'' Oh God, what I have to do now? :( To wait God's answer maybe I'll try to figure him out as the best as I can, and I pray to God to realize my heart to love him heartfelt and same with him too. And i am gonna fly away with all of my wishes :D